aqilah musfirah
"The girl in the mirror wasn't who I wanted to be
and her life wasn't the one I wanted to have"

Proud to be a mariner.
I don't make promises that I can't keep.

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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Wake me up when september ends

As you all know, today is August 31st, so;

 Happy Independence Day, Malaysia!

Okay, lets not be a hypocrite. I'm not a patriotic person. And I bet you already know that. But ONE thing for sure, I'm proud to be a Malaysian. Malaysia boleh!

Well, yeah, so, today's August 31st, which means.. yeah, tomorrow will be September 1st.

Read the title again.

Oh yes, I feel like hibernating for one whole month now.

You know what? Forget it. It's no big deal, really.

No, really. I'm fine. I'm super duper fine!

. . . .

. . . .

Anyway! here!
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So.... What now??

*Sighhh* Guess I'll talk to my parents about this. They'd know what's best for me. Can't believe I'm still so indecisive up 'till now =.="

Confession #43: I don't know why, but people seem to like to judge me based on my appearance. When I hear some of people's first impressions towards me, I feel like rolling on floor laughing. But of course I never did that (not yet, at least), or else those people will change their not-so-first impressions to 'laaa.. gila rupanya'.. =.="  They seem to judge my family the same way,too. I never really give a damn about what people think of me but somehow, I resent the idea of people judging my family (parents, to be specific) without getting to know them first. Seriously, cut it out people!
Next time you point your finger, I might have to bend it back and break it, break it off. Next time you point your finger, I'll point you to the mirror. -Playing God, Paramore-
Get what I meannnn??

Confession #44:  I. Want. To. Flee.

Confession #45: Back off!

Monday, August 30, 2010


-[Miley Cyrus]-

I can honestly say you've been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

But I remember those simple things
I remember 'til I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget
Is goodbye

I woke up this morning and played our song
And throwing my tears, I sang along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
'Cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

But I remember the simple things
I remember 'til I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
With your ringtone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
And I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

You remember the simple things
We talked 'til we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish I'd forget
Is saying goodbye, saying goodbye
Ooh, goodbye

He was gone long before you realized it.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

Firts of all,
I've never been away from my family during Ramadhan before. Kind of sad eating sahur and sungkai without them. Mum would've cooked noodles for those at homes for sahur like she did every year, although she knows I'm never a fan of noodles =.=" I've never finished my meal (if it was noodles) and she'd go, like, "Makan!" Lol. Miss u, mum :')

I didn't cry, though. But my roommates did and I bet loads of other people here cried, too. It's not that I have no feelings or whatsoever, but I've told myself that it's going to be okay. Sooner or later, we're gonna deal with this kind of situation, so why not prepare yourself starting from now? It's time to be a big girl, now.

My life is changing so fast and nothing has ever remained the same. Most of my fear really came true. But instead of being the miserable girl I was when I first stepped in secondary school,  I chose to be the girl who laugh her miseries away. Maybe it's called 'pretending'. But I don't care. I just wanna feel good. And I DO feel good, even though it's only temporary. I am just so grateful that I am constantly surrounded by crazy friends here. Hahaha. They make me wanna go crazy,too XD

BTW I've been reading Max's story-blog. If you are a fan of anime/manga/shoujo manga, you might like this.
Click here to read. I've read 'till episode 3 so far. Hehe will continue reading after I get some sleep. I'm feeling so sleep-deprived now. Woke up at 3 for sahur and now it's 7a.m. =.="

p.s. bought eclipse :DDDD

Trying to read it as slow as possible. But somehow, I managed to finish half of the book in 4-days time. And I didn't even read it all the time. Gosh, it's a distraction =.=" Very tempting. huhu.. X puas hati belum tengok movie dia. Nanti balik KK mesti beli DVD! >:(

Confession #41: Saya cepat betul kesian dgn org. Even though that person never really deserves it. Sighhh. Will u just give up, already?? I seriously feel like I'm the bad guy here.

Confession #42: My heart aches every time I think about it. And every time I picture it. And I wanna run away from it. Oh please Dear Almighty God, make me stronger and stronger and stronger to infinity.

Time for bed. I'm going to be night owl  Batgirl today. Sleep during the day and 'work' (as a volunteer librarian) at night. My salary?
-Markah Kokum. Ngehhhh :PPP

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Every rose has its thorn

Confession #35: I actually have nomophobia, the term abbreviation for "no-mobile-phone phobia". To know more about it, click here. But then again, I guess everyone has it. Lol. It's not severe, though.

Confession #36: I'm not a studious person. Not that I wanna be that way. I mean, I always try to drag myself into studying but most of the time, I'd just end up daydreaming. =.=" Sdala begitu pegi pilih Sains Hayat lagi. My Bio really sucks, man. Why why WHY did I choose BIO??? Aaarrggghh..

Confession #37Loyalty is very important to me. To be honest, I am a loyal person. I'd never backstab OR hurt anyone on purpose. Because I LOATHE being backstabbed and hurt.

Confession #38: I wanna go home. Clearly, the mid-term break was not enough for me =.= Ada org baru balik kampus hari ini dgn senyuman lebar lagi di muka. Besides! I'm pretty sure Perry the platypus misses me :P

Confession #39: I'm a fan of Avenged Sevenfold! XD I ♥ their songs Dear God and Afterlife most ;P

Confession #40: Saya gembira elaun sda masuk! hohoho $_$

OK, I'm going back to bed. Tata!
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