aqilah musfirah
"The girl in the mirror wasn't who I wanted to be
and her life wasn't the one I wanted to have"

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Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Rancangan Orientasi Sekolah (ROS)


It's been awhile.

So! I am about to blog about something that happened, like, two months ago. Yeah, 'cause blogging about stuff right after it happened is too mainstream. Lol jk, I'm just lazy, but I really think that I should blog about this.

As you can see, the title of this entry says "Rancangan Orientasi Sekolah",or, ROS, which is actually one of the compulsory activities for Pre-Service Program (PSP) of Teach for Malaysia Fellowship.

What's Teach for Malaysia (TFM) ??? Well, basically, it's a non-profit organisation that aims to end education inequity in Malaysia. You may say that it's another "channel" for you to become a teacher, or so. For instance, in my case, I was, like:
I'm jobless, but I need money, like, seriously. 
So I searched for any relevant jobs, in which one of them was a Part-time Tutor position at a local tuition centre.
I went for the interview and two days later, they've asked me to teach English for PT3 as well as Sains for SPM. 
So I went and realised that, hey, teaching is not so bad. Why the heck am I so against it since, like, FOREVER? 
Then I somehow regretted how I NEVER applied to get into IPG or UPSI. 
And after I'm almost done feeling stupid for not doing so, I met a tutor at the tuition centre who told me that it MAY not be too late, yet, if I really wish to be a teacher.
Yep, she's the one who told me about TFM and encouraged me to apply for the fellowship. (Too bad I can't even remember her name. Sorry. I'm lousy with names. Besides, I only met her twice. Three times, tops.)

After I heard about it, I went to look it up online and I like the idea that not only that this would be good for myself, but if I get that fellowship, I will be doing something that is also beneficial for the society (I have this thing that I won't settle for anything less than that. I want my job to be meaningful enough in life, and this is one of the ways to achieve that). And so....

  • I survived the WRITTEN TEST.
  • I got through the PHONE INTERVIEW.
  • I got through the ASSESSMENT CENTRE.

Next step? ROS, Duh. I was placed in SMK Pujut, Miri, Sarawak and it was one of the best experiences I've had in life! (Not to mention that it was my very first time to finally set foot  on Sarawak, the Land of the Hornbills)

I went for house-visits:

 With a student from SMK Pujut. The one standing behind her was another candidate for the 2016 cohort, Tini.
For this particular picture above, I remember I was dressed pretty cincai-ish (cheap-looking striped monochrome tank top, basic black jeans, long grey hooded-sweater, clown-like sport shoes [hey, in my defense, I was trying to save up space in my luggage BAHAHAHHH]). That's because I woke up late, and I realised that I was very close to missing my flight, so I had to wear the first thing I grabbed, and went to the airport totally make-up free. I WISH MY DIRECT FELLOW WOULD'VE TOLD ME FIRST THAT HE INTENDED TO BRING ME ALONG FOR HIS HOUSE-VISITS. *cries*cries*cries*

I get to observe the 2015 cohort's fellows teach:

These are just some of them. I couldn't be seen playing with my phone, all the time, right? It would've looked bad lol. Yep. As you can see, their methods of teaching are very different. And yeah, I can totally feel their burning passion to make a lasting impact in these kids' lives! :)

I get to observe the non-TFM teachers conduct their classes:

Form 5 English Class with Mr. Tan, a teacher who, surprisingly, tends to smiles a lot for a guru disiplin lol.

I get to meet the students:

The students were very welcoming! Everywhere I go, they'd be like "Hai Cikgu!!", "Cikgu! Cikgu! *waves dramatically*", "Cikgu Aqilahhhh~~~!!!", and so on. Not to mention, they're all asking for our facebook, twitter, whatsapp, wechat, etc hahaha.

Oh yeah! Another thing is, the student there is obsessed with beat-boxing. No matter where you go, you'd encounter a student or two going "pmmphh-pshh-ba-bup-bup-psshttt". . . (ikr, WHYYY) 

The followings are some of the questions that my direct fellow, Raee, had gathered for me from his students (aww) :
"I want to know his/her feeling when she/he was alone without or any friend support"
 Hah. Matang gittew soalan dia. Tapi dik, saya adalah seorang perempuan. Maka, silalah guna "she" instead of "he" okay. I'm not a she-male. HAHAHAHA. Anyway, to answer your question, I like being alone, so it doesn't bother me that much. Most of the time, I'd prefer to be alone with my thoughts. I'm a bit of an introvert, I must say. Luckily, I have never find myself without any form of support from my loved ones. Sure, there are times when none of them could've helped me physically, regardless of how much they wanted to, but they'd always, always be there to give me emotional support. Plus, when nothing else seems to work, I'd turn to God, and every time I did so, I'd feel so much better and I believe that His help is near, in which it usually is! Alhamdulillah :)

"About life."
Bah. Ini saya suka. Pindik tapi bermakna. It'd different for everyone, really. Some might find life is as easy as pie, others might struggle and stumble and fall when it comes to this thing called "life". Well, if you ever find yourself struggling with life, what's important is you must find a reason not to give up. A reason for you to keep fighting, no matter how many times you fall. The thing is, sometimes, we can't control what's going to happen to us. You may be extra careful not to screw anything up, but somehow there's just something or someone who keeps dragging you down. It hurts, and it will hurt more when people you care about are affected, as well. At one point, it would seem as if there's nothing else you can do to make things better. Well guess what? There is. PRAY. Just keep praying. God listens. He will never burden you with more than you can handle. Yes, life is unfair, but God is.

"Saya nak dia bercerita tentang pengalaman, idola, cita-cita dan banyak lagi."
I don't really have an idol. I just look up to people who sees the good in others, and to those who keeps on giving and giving to the less-fortunates and the environment, though they know they may never get anything physical in return. But.... if you still want names, I'd say Angelina Jolie, Oprah Winfrey, and Ian Somerhalder. Yeah, I'm sure you know why. If you don't, well, Mr. Google is always there for ya! About my ambition... I haven't really given much thoughts about it. I just want to do something that won't only benefit me, but will also contribute to the world. I want to make an impact that is significant to me, as well as to the society. I hope that answers the question, lol.

"Tentang dirinya."
Ni tajuk lagu ka apa ni? LOL. Well, long story short. I am not who I seem to be. I am more than I let on. I only show what I want you to see. I'm a fighter, and I'm sure as hell a survivor :)

"I wan to know about her life."
Whoa there. You really don't wanna know. Just be glad that you're not living my life.

"Saya nak dia bercerita tentang pengalaman dia di luar negara. Saya nak dia bercerita tentang k-pop."
Saya tak pernah pergi luar negara. Saya miskin huhuhuhuhuhu. (P.S. Saya tak minat K-Pop.)

"I want to hear about their experience and their good stories during they still young :D"
Hmm.. good stories, huh? OK, during my childhood, Alhamdulillah, every thing was more than enough. I have received enough love (though I kinda grew up with tough love and strict upbringing), enough food, enough toys and games to keep me happy. Yup, very much happier than I am now. I really wish that we could go back to the past and tell ourselves what we know now, so that we wouldn't end up where we are today. But that's just that. My fantasy. I was very naughty, though. I started skipping classes since I was  barely 5 years old and I managed to drag my cousin along with me. As a result, my kindergarten teacher found out and she later punished me in front of the whole class, along with my innocent cousin (lol poor her. I mean, I made her follow me to the playground during lesson time. She didn't even want to join me, but I was very persuasive and persistent hahahah.) Ah, those good ol' times.

"Bagaimana pengalaman kamu semasa di universiti?"
Siok. Banyak diving. Banyak huhahuha. Banyak buat keja gila. However, there were also challenging moments during my undergrad years, which, I prefer not to share.

"I want her to talk about her career."
LOL. WHAT CAREER??? *insert LOL emoji*

"I want she to talk about his experience or something about English subject."
(I cringed staring at the structure of this kid's sentence. I hope he/she will get better in time with, the help from the super fellows there :(
I used to be VERY bad in English. I didn't even score an A for my UPSR BI paper. Then, I was determined to improve my English, both written and spoken. I used English when engaging in conversation with my friends, I watched a lot of English movies, I listened to English songs, I read English books, and I've started blogging in English. Sure, I still have a lot of rooms for improvement, but I am much better now than I was before. Learning is simple. You just need to have curiosity and enough desire to learn. As someone used to say to me, "Even 'fools' can learn so much better, when compared to those who does not even have the intention to learn". 

"Saya ingin dia menceritakan tentang pembelajaran atau usaha dia untuk berjaya dan pengalaman hidupnya."
Hmm.. I can't tell you much. But I did whatever it takes for me to get where I am today. God knows what I had to do to get my degree certificate! Lost sleep, lost everything but thankfully, I could still find the strength to on. YOU SHOULD NEVER GIVE UP IN WHATEVER YOU DO, TOO! :D

I get to motivate the students on why they should never give up on studying:

Yeah, the students always, always insisted on selfies! Here are some of them. I am honoured to share my experiences with them. It also felt good to spark some interest in them to think outside of the box, to give them a general view to what is waiting for them when they go for further studies. According to the teachers, we have successfully motivated them to try harder in class so that they have a better chance to pursue their dreams after they went through with SPM.

I get to meet awesome people:

The fellows! Too bad I don't have any real pictures with them. Everything happened so fast we couldn't seem to find time to get together and take a simple, nice photo. Plus everyone was too busy/tired preparing for their Hari Sukan. They're really nice people and I couldn't thank them enough for being so generous by letting us stay with them. *sobs* *touched* 
The 2016 cohort candidates! Yeah it did seem like we've known each other forever hahahahahhh. It was nice that everyone got along well. Some of them were locals, and they were considerate enough to offer me and Tini for a ride to the IPG for UKCG. *sobs* *sobs* *touched, indeed*

Last but not least, although the result is out and it turns out that they had to drop almost half of the 2016 offerees (Yes, I am one of them. And so were nearly all of the candidates from Sabah and Sarawak), I believe we have gained something significant during the ROS Program. Plus, we can still go for the the rests of the PSP, namely Akademi and Kem Skorlah!. Well, I guess I'll see most of them again soon :)

P.S. Congrats to the candidates who made it! All the best :D

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