The Root

I feel so needy.

I feel as though I'm a burden to certain people.

I feel so guilty.

What would you do if you know the exact root of all your problems but there's nothing you can do about it?

Perhaps

Perhaps it was just a damn joke.

Perhaps you just wanted to check on me.

Perhaps it was just out of curiosity

Perhaps I was hoping that it could be more than that.

Maybe one day. Maybe.

More than anything

A long time ago, I would've wished that this'd be me in the distant future. 

Now all I want is for my parents to live happily, like that happy, or maybe even more.

Because that's what they deserve. 

To be happy as much as they can.

I am still clueless about what I really want in my life. About most things, really.

But of this I am certain. I want this more than anything.

I will never stop praying for them.

May Allah ease everything.

Amin.